*melodramatic pause*
No shit, It's my blog ! I rediscovered it after ages. I left it. Abandoned it. Betrayed it. Or I just was too goddamn lazy. I think it's the last. But things have changed so much since then on a personal level that this place offers a strange warm comfort. This obscure insignificant speck in the blogosphere reminds me of simpler times. Of a fuzzy period in my life when all the root cause of anxiety was the low talktime in my phone and the stash of porn CDs under the study table cleverly marked "Science Project". In short it reminds me of less fucked-up times.
Although I'm teetering on the edge of regurgitating every little emotional capsule that I have been digesting over this period of long absence, I will hold most of it back. When I started blogging, I promised myself to never adopt the 'personal diary' angle. I wanted to be a serious blogger. I wanted to be taken seriously. But then I discovered the fourth cardinal sin: sloth. Love at first sight, I'd say.
Let me not digress. So yes, this space reminds me of simpler times. Evoking nostalgia and shit, you know what I'm saying. Which is why I'm here. Trying to write. That's another issue with me these days, "Trying" to write. Words don't flow as much as I'd like them to, these days. Which is odd given the fact that I went on to do a motherfuckin MA in Journalism and am currently in the field of "communication" : see the irony? no? Just me then. Probably it's to do with my current non-existent social life devoid of inspiration of any kind. More importantly the lack of a stable career as I still haven't figured out where the fuck I'm headed.
Anyway, since I am in an existential shithole of sorts at the moment, I thought the best way forward would be to simplify things. So, in an attempt to avoid over-complicating things, I have decided to seek refuge in this blog. And write more often. Yes ! That's my 2011 resolution.
Also high on my resolution list is to get a lapdance and a 6-pack.
Believe.
Peace ][
